What I Need!!

I need to write MORE. Why don't I write as much as I should could? I have been known to squander time, on pitifully mindless sites like YouTube. There just aren't enough A Different World Reruns to satisfy my lovesick soul! I then turned to Moesha, which never was a favorite of mine, only to return to that age old stalwart for women such as myself--Natural hair videos ofcourse. YT provides some semblance of controlling the Universe--administering the power to toggle between post BC TWAs and waist-length hair, all within seconds. Still its not reality. At least not mine.
So here I am, in the library contemplating alternate universes and desires of what I shall become. This is the time in my life were I take the leap to the next step. Problem is, I have no I dear what that step is. I lie. Vague notions of happiness drift through my head, fantasies fill my dreams with stacks of books, an acoustic slung over my shoulder, poem book and pen in hand. I am a writer and thinker, a being happy in self. Alice Walker and Toni great me in not so silent reverie. Joy fills my soul. I am not alone, I am complete.
 And I realize I am still finding myself. 23 years old and I feel like more of me should be together. 

Still Walking,
Akos