Daily Insight into my Soul

Thought: I feel like I need a tattoo on my wrist that says
"Speak what's on your heart. Be real with others so you can be real with yourself",
 to remind myself to say what I feel.
It seems like my lips have been silenced for so long that when I part them I'm uncertain of what may come out.

How do I know what I'm feeling?
How do I speak what's on my heart?
Simple questions that everyone should know the answer to, yet I'm stumped.
Now that I have someone to listen I'm not sure of what to say.

I'm Growing

AJ

Sometimes You Just Need to Cry

Yesterday was just one of those days that I needed to let it all out and cry.
Like many, I have lived a life that has been filled with trauma, and unexpected sadness.

But I've never really dealt with the hurts of my past.

I always felt that it was a sign of weakness to show or even feel many of my emotions. Instead I would keep them bottled up, and see them expressed in other ways. The coldness of my interactions with others. The way I had been dealing, or not dealing, with my emotions has led distress in some of my closest relationships.
So I decided to embark on  a journey of healing. One where I allow myself to truly FEEL. To feel any and every emotion that troubles my soul.
So, I cried. And Cried.
I talked to God, and then cried some more.
I experienced  heartbreak, and Love simultaneously.
I don't know why we run from heartbreak. I believe the pain that comes when love is lost, is natural ,and can be therapeutic.
 We are human beings and we should embrace the spectrum of emotions that God has given us.

That is not to say that we should jump in front of speeding train. No. If there are signs of trouble, think about it,  and if necessary JUMP OFF!

I allowed myself to feel, and when it was over a sea of calm washed over my soul.

Just Breathe,
AJ

I'm Not Scared of Lions and Tigers and Bears

This is a poem that I found on someone's Myspace page. It really inspired me, in the background was jasmine sullivans song Lions and Tigers. This song was the perfect complement to the mental pictures that the poem dipicted. Think about it and most of all..ENjoy it!!

Let me drop some knowledge..Like many other women I know I was in a bad relationship. The man I was dating was not for me; not only were our personalities a terrible mix, but I brought my insecurities into the pictures. You see I was struggling with my appearance; I had acne blemishes on my face and they really took away from the beauty I had inside. My Ex was very handsome but having acne made me feel like I wasn't good enough to be with him. Confidence is an extremely important element of a happy life and relationship. My insecurities brought our relationship down. I was afraid to look into the mirrow or even look him in the eye. I felt like he could see right through me; and he could. Years after the relationship ended, I still have a few blemishes but Jesus is the one who makes me feel good about myself and not my apperance. Don't get me wrong, I like to look good just like anyone else, but I don't allow the american set of values dictate how I feel about myself. " Cast your cares on Him, because He cares for you"




IF A MAN WANTS YOU
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
! He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your
always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them