The Kingdom of God is not in self, but service!: Chosen for Purpose, Assigned for Destiny

The Kingdom of God is not in self, but service!: Chosen for Purpose, Assigned for Destiny: "And the LORD said unto Samuel, How long wilt thou mourn for Saul, seeing I have rejected him from reigning over Israel? fill thine horn wi...

Loc it up!

Ok, I have a secret obsession with loc'd hair. I'm absolutely enamored with it! Notwithstanding this affinity, I don't actually want to loc my hair, for fear that once I do I won't be able to take them out. I mean the name does say it all, once you loc up you throw away the key. The only thing that vaguely resembles one are scissors and a pair of clippers. And I'm just not feeling that right now. Though I do fantasize about fading it up too. I think I'll do that once I reach my waist length hair goal. Anyway, I digress, in the meantime I'll assuage my longing to channel my inner Bob by styling my twists in styles typically marketed for loc'd hair. Today was my first official effort.  The style isn't the best but I tried. The view is better in the front, as opposed to the sides. I wish I had a scarf to cover the back, lol. I'm not doing anything else to it for 3 days, until I moisturize and restyle. I need a break from this hair!! 

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40 days..Monday October 3, 2011 is day one.

Will be replaced by biblical and academic studies.

Late Nite Calls

Its 12am. While procrastination slowly threatens to destroy my nights sleep, and I put off preparing my presentation, I break into tears. Sobbing away over the memories of what was and what could have been. Reliving the greatest, and most heartbreaking moments of my life. My emotion consumes me, and I feel out of control. There is no one to call who will understand. My bestfriend is on her way to dreamland, and I'm stuck out here all alone. My only respite, and source of comfort is and has always been God. He is my saving grace. I call on Him, crying, prostrate on my beige carpet praying for relief from the pain that has been nurtured and growing inside me for some time now. Slowly but definitely surely, He answers, comes to the rescue in my distress, and waves of love and peace wash over my soul. My 911 is psalms 46 "God is our refuge and strength. An ever present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way. My world was collapsing. And the mountains fall into the heart of the sea." Into the sea and on top of me. No matter what others say, I am well aware of who to call on when my soul bursts with joy, and threatens to crumble from sadness. He is awesome.

Realigning.
Akosua. Denell.

Licking Wounds

Someone Like You..I really should stop listening to that song. But I can't.

Is heartbreak addicting, like the desire to stare at the wounds you've reaped for being too impetuous? Do you feel a sense of satisfaction knowing you've taking a risk that leaves you bleeding; sobbing silently in a corner as you reflect on what a shamble it all was, and what it could have been? Clearly it wasn't because you wouldn't feel like you'd just been hit by a tractor-trailer. As if for an instant, oxygen was zapped from your cells and you strained--gasped-for air like a catfish devoid of water. Shriveling to death as a drying blow fish. Yet I can't stop listening to this song.
The passive act of listening to these pain laced lyrics is in some ways cathartic. The sharing of the human experience is reassuring that I'm not alone in a hand basket filled with idiots, who weren't smart enough to look before we leaped, only to forget that we would hit the hard earth eventually. Jumping off the precipice only to land in a valley of jagged mountain, crumbling beneath into an abyss of nothingness. Ignorantly believing that we'd fall into the arms of our love. I didn't fall into His arms. But when I reached for Him, He gathered me, dressed my wounds, and cradled me in His bosom.

Sobbing.
AKos

Rant: A Theoretical Computer Shortage.

I am a one of a few college students that is without a personal computer. Mine died last year during my time in Ghana. In America's technological, and information driven society, where computers now fit into your pocket, its a wonder that I don't feel left behind. I choose not to own a smartphone, the computer on the other hand is a serious expense that I'm not ready to undertake. Being that I don't own one of those high tech, lighting fast machines, I depend on my university's library to provide my entrance to the information superhighway. For me the library is not a convenience its a necessity. So, imagine my angst when I arrive at the library, during the mid-afternoon (obviously peak time), only to find that almost every machine is in use. Now, I completely understand that the library is a resource to be utilized by every student, even members of the general public, and not myself alone. However it gives me great displeasure to find, on my earnest search of each successive floor, people with not one but two computers at their disposal. Seriously?! As I'm walking to and fro down the isles of this labyrinth of books, I see a spectacle that makes me want to scream.
There's a guy using his laptop, while simultaneously signed on to a desktop! When I clearly saw that he was only using his laptop, I politely asked if he were using the desktop as well, which he clearly was NOT. What was his response you ask? "Yes I'm using both" and he arbitrarily clicked the mouse to show me his activity. Why lie my friend? It is obvious that you are abusing your rights the to the university's computers, when there are myriad students, myself included, in dire need ( I exaggerate) of one. I hid my disdain for this patron's dishonest remarks and quietly strolled away.

Things I'll never understand.
Akos

Achieving your Goals

What is the difference between wanting something and actually realizing it? Action. If you are hungry do you just sit and wait for food to fall out of the sky? No! You get up and fix yourself something to eat. If you don't have any food you go out and by it. Or if someone offers you food, you take it. My mother says if you don't eat what's in front of  you, then you're not really truly hungry. It's a principle that can be applied to life in general. When you really want something, no matter what your means are you will take action to obtain it. I think that really applies to your relationship with God. Jeremiah 29:13 says "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL you heart. James 4:8 goes on to say "Draw near to God and he will draw near to you..." Could it be any plainer? I'm speaking to myself. Academically, if you want to make the dean's list you can't fool around the entire semester, ignoring all the readings for your course, and then expect to make A's, let alone pass your class. The only time you can not do something and still expect to obtain results is starving yourself to lose weight. And even that abhorable task requires the willpower to ignore your hunger pains. We can't--I can't be lazy. What is it that you really desire in life? The reality is that there are no shortcuts. You have to work for your goals. Pure and simple. Not that there won't be opposition even in your efforts, there most definitely will be. But you still have to try. At least with God you have the assurance of His infallible words that if you do make an effort to trust Him, He will "make the dark places light and the rough places smooth" Isaiah 42:16. What have you got to lose?

Evolving.
Akosua. Asharae. Denell.