I Got a New Car!

While listening to my pastor Andrew Wommack, I had a revelation about faith. My Dad (God), has blessed me with a car. I had been without a car for almost two years. Three weeks before I went to Ghana I was in a car accident, and my car was totaled. Because I was in Africa for a year, I didn't care about not having a car--its not like I could use it there anyway. Fast forward a year later, and I'm living right across from campus, and Gwyn-the-schwinn was my transportation. I didn't start feeling the itch for a car until around April of this year. I decided to believe God for a car. Deuteronomy 28:12 says you shall lend unto many nations and shall not borrow.  Because of this truth I decided that financing wasn't an option for me. Now back to today, Andrew reminded me of a powerful scripture. Hebrews 11:6 "without faith its impossible to please God. Why is that? My dad is a loving god. And then it hit me. Faith is the arm that we use to reach into the spiritual realm to appropriate what he has already done for us, and cause it to manifest in the physical world. My dad responds to faith and not need. 3 John 1:2 says "beloved I wish above all things that you would prosper and be in health even as your soul prospers". The way his will is fulfilled is when we believe what he has already done and reach out by faith. So, he is pleased when we take what he has already given us and believe it so it can finally manifest into the physical. He is pleased when our needs are met. No father is ever pleased when his children are suffering and starving. It was explained to me in this way. Our dad has prepared for us a great feast on his banquet table. Everything we need is already laid out for us. All we have to do is reach out and take it. This is why Philippians 4:4 "rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again: rejoice!" is possible. Because he has given us everything we need, and we don't have to beg and plead and be desperate. Thank you Jesus!

She Tried to Curse Me Again..

While ridding to work this morning, in an exuberant decree I shared my excitement about going to bible college, with the driver, (who will remain anonymous). I was genuinely happy about the direction that God is guiding my life, and the fact that I’m actually going to follow it. And instead of returning and equal level of excitement she proceeded to tell me that I was wrong. Wrong?! For desiring to go to bible college? No. For not wanting to go to her church anymore. That wasn’t the only reason. She felt that I should have apologized to her pastor for leaving the church. Does this sound absurd yet? The fact is, that we’ve had this conversation before, three years ago. There were a lot of tears, and I allowed it to tear my relationship with my Father apart. I was just a babe then. Now I am an adult, and as I explained to her that I now have the right, and responsibility to choose whom I let feed me. Unfortunately my pastor of choice runs a para-church ministry. So I have to watch his sermons online. The bible college that I will be attending in the spring of next is his brain child. Lets get to the cursing. The woman I was ridding with this morning told me that I was not going to prosper until I apologized and made things right with my former pastor. I should mention that I did this three years ago when she asked me to do the exact same thing. This morning I told her that I would not me doing that again. I wasn’t trying to be stubborn but I refuse to be in bondage. I now know enough about God’s love for me. I am not cursed because of the church I want to go to. The truth of the matter is that ever since I heard the true gospel, the too good to be true news, I refuse to accept anything less.

I Was Thinking About Sex the Other day…

 

..And I came to a conclusion. Sort of a revelation. While listening to my pastor Andrew Wommack he said something that really made me think. I knew it already but I felt like the Holy Spirit made it real to me. He was talking about Adam and Eve and the fact that they were naked, butt naked and were not ashamed. Stunning revelation huh. That’s not all. They communed with God, walked and talked with Him during the cool of the day—every day, and all the while they were naked. How many of us, I’m not married, but if we were butt naked and in the presence of our mates would be able to focus on God, and commune with Him? What I realized that even though God designed us and made us sexual beings, that in his presence even our most basic drives are suppressed. But not just suppressed, its just that He is so awesome any and everything else just pales in comparison. I knew this already Psalms 119: 11, Says “thy word have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against thee”. When I'm delighting myself in Him and reading his word consistently, giving in to porn never even crosses my mind. I couldn’t even make myself visit one of those sights. Its when I’m not allowing Him to fill my voids when things go wrong. Sex has its place, and God certainly made it enjoyable for married people. But what gets me is how Satan has deceived us into thinking that its all there is to life. Our media is saturated by it. We’re socialized into thinking we can’t live without it, that we can’t control ourselves. Its all about SEX! But really when we are in the presence of our creator, he is so all consuming that nothing else is important. We need to allow him to fill our voids.

Like watching Porn all over again

 

One night a few days ago I was up late flipping through the channels, and I stumbled across the second episode of Love and Hip Hop – Atlanta. I have a general contempt for trashy reality tv shows, but this time I seemed to be caught off guard and I was instantly enthralled in the drama. All of the cursing and strife are nothing short of evil and I shouldn’t have watched it. I saw almost the entire episode but finally pulled myself away during the last few moments. But I wanted more. So I headed to Vh1.com for extra footage. I became a member of #teamMIMI and instantly hated joseline. I knew I had no business watching a show like this. As some one who’s been deceived into watching porn one too many times I know the steps necessary to walk down that slippery slope—watching shows filled with sexual innuendos is one of them. But I kept watching. I was able to pull myself away for a few days. While flipping through the channels I passed 42  up, and kept it moving. Then this afternoon I decided to cruse on by the website for episode three to see about joseline’s impending pregnancy. I watched this young woman cry and be abused by a man that treated her like one of his hoes. I was appalled. During one of her commentaries she talked about her background. How she ran away at 12 and began doing what she had to to make money. And I realized how much she was like myself. She is one of the girls that I want to dedicate my life helping. by sharing with them the love that God has for them. My desire to watch the show was vanquished. It reminded me of the time I watched a video of the behind the scenes life of a porn star. How they are beaten and raped and abused. That video was like an antidote for my porn addiction. I can’t watch/participate in another woman’s destruction.

This is the Testimony

This man's testimony is so powerful. I'm not an Islamic scholar, and I'm smart enough to know that you shouldn't allow one person's opinion to represent an entire group of people. But God is above all of that. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. We can't affect how people will receive our testimonies but the point is that we should all share the love of Christ.

Be Blessed.

Lifelong learning

Ok I am super excited about what I just heard. Harvard and MIT are offering FREE online Classes through their new cooperative program EdX! I can't wait, I will definitely be supplementing my education. You can never stop learning!
Here's a link. Please everyone should check it out, its democratization education.
http://www.edxonline.org/
I'm sure it's not going to outsource actually going to those schools but education should be accessible to all. First class will be offered in the Fall. This is why we have to watch the news people!
We perish for lack of knowledge.

You Planted the Seed

I have made a concession regarding this blog--every once in a while it will be taken over by my natural hair blogging alter-ego and serve as my very own hair photo album. I can't get on facebook, and I need a place to share pics of my "good hair" days. This happens to be one of them. For the past week, a few acquaintances have asked me to wear my hair out. My answer to this was simply a flat out "NO!". Do they know how much effort must be put in to wear my hair down? And yet today I've acquiesced. I got the itch this morning, and I fought hard not to scratch it. I don't wear my hair completely out unless I get that feeling. This morning it it me hard. Its this restless, unsettling feeling I get when I look at the coif in the mirror. Anyway I took it out in the bathroom at the Library, because I just couldn't take it any longer. I was hoping that I didn't come out looking like two different people, and that the other students wouldn't notice my metamorphoses. Here are a few pics.

If you can't tell by now, I'll admit that I certainly do think I'm cute lol . I was feeling myself :)

Akos