Faring Better on My Own

I'm an only child. I am the youngest of 5. Twenty-four years separate myself and my eldest sister. It wasn't until my first cousins moved down from Virginia and New York that I experience the regular company of kids my age. But for most of my childhood I was alone. I had friends at school, and i could play with my cousins on the weekends, but I grew accustomed to the solitary life. Fifteen years later and not much has changed; except that its me +1. You can see Him physically, hopefully you can see Him in me, but he's here. When I'm alone, my heart reaches out to Him. I look to him to satisfy my longing for human company--and he does. I'm enjoying the process of getting to know Him. Satan knows this too because for the past 3 - 4 weeks I've been bombarded with invitations for male company, which previously would have been a feat of the greatest order. And I began to let someone in. Just as friends but you know how that goes. I told my dad that wanted to share all my joy and sorrow and excitement with him. I wanted Him to be the outlet for my emotional vicissitudes. But I noticed that during the brief time he and I were relating that things changed between myself and my father. Now that it's over Dad and I are back on the up and up. I want to give him everything in me.

Anxious and Troubled

 

I was feeling a little down today. Feeling like I ‘d missed the mark. A few posts ago, I stated how amazing this summer had been for my spiritual growth. God has really become my best friend. I was delighting myself in Him more than ever. But then I allowed myself to become distracted by none other than a man. I know that his word brings about effortless change, and right now I need to renew my mind on how amazingly important being single is. 1 Corinthians 7: 32 – 34  “ but he who has married cares for the things of the world, how he may  please his wife and is distracted” Married people are distracted! wow! “ Both the unmarried woman and the virgin care for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit; but she how has married cares for the things of the the world, how she may please her husband” I have one of those amazing reference bibles that puts superscripts above certain words, and it referenced Mary and Martha. In Luke 10:40 Mary was sitting at Jesus’ feet so she’d have the best place to hear him speak, and while Martha was running around and serving others, not that serving is bad, but in comparison to the opportunity to here the very words spoken by the living God, there is no comparison. In this instance Mary was living out Philippians 3:8, she counted everything as loss but for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ. Martha can be compared to the married woman from 1 Corinthians who is called to serve her husband, but Mary being without a mate could give all her attention to the Lord.  I want to be like Mary.